Wishing you a Merry Christmas

by Alice on December 17, 2011

Only a few weeks away from the start of the New Year and I find myself reflecting a lot about 2011.  Most of my posts this year revolved around the sudden death of my dad.  And as we, as a family, approach the 1 year mark of his death, I cannot help but feel both grateful and a little sad. 

My sadness doesn’t come from me wishing my dad could be here to celebrate the holidays with us, although I know he would have loved to have met his two new grandchildren.  I’m just sad he is gone.  But as we all know, life goes on.

The last twelve months have been so crazy (like-a-rollercoaster), I liken it to feeling like I’m drifting in the ocean holding on to a piece of beach wood just to survive.  Major life changes, greater responsibilities, and constantly reassessing my priorities leaves me exhausted most days.  I don’t want to make it sound like my life is horrible or depressing because this simply isn’t true.  Living a life through a filter of gratitude and faith keeps me balanced and always seeking true north. [click to continue…]

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Déjà-Vu Moment of Reflection

by Alice on November 30, 2011


Since Thanksgiving, there has been a greater awareness (within our family) of the 1 year mark of dad’s passing approaching.  Last Friday, the day after Thanksgiving, my husband took my daughter and niece downtown to take in all the Christmas displays, the gingerbread village at the Sheraton, and to experience the holiday spirit.  Before heading home he treated the girls to frozen yogurt sundaes when the three of them had a somber déjà-vu moment when they realized the last time they were downtown together was the night my father died, just two days after Christmas.  They found themselves sitting at the same table as last year, eating frozen yogurt, and being surrounded by familiar festive holiday lights.  They were sitting at this table when I called my husband last year to tell him my father was badly hurt in an accident and that I was heading to the hospital. [click to continue…]

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New Normal

November 15, 2011

Last Saturday my dad would have turned 69 years old.  Every year my sisters and brother along with our families would meet at someone’s home to celebrate dad’s birthday with a potluck style dinner and a sugar-free apple pie -a favorite of dad’s because of his diabetes.  This year we met at the cemetary in [...]

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Sustaining Grace

October 25, 2011

“I do not at all understand the mystery of grace – only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us.” ~ Anne Lamott   I am so thankful for my close friends who know me so well.  Despite isolating myself from most of them this last year, [...]

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Taking It Easy

August 24, 2011

The other day a friend of my daughters came over for a play date.  When she and her mother arrived I invited them both in and we ended up chatting for quite a long time.  As we shared similar stories about life events gone by, I realized how important it is to recall these moments [...]

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A Day with Isaiah

July 14, 2011

The last twenty-four hours has been an emotional whirlwind of sorts.  Last night my baby sister (Janice) gave birth to her second son (Titus) while her older son (Isaiah) stayed with us.  When he was dropped off, he transitioned into the fun, vibrant kid I know him to be playing with his cousins (my kids) [...]

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Ask Alice: What Type of Camera Do I Use?

June 28, 2011

Questions: “Your photos are absolutely gorgeous. What kind of camera equipment do you use and what software do you use to edit them? I’m assuming it’s Photoshop. CS5? And did you basically learn photography on your own or take classes?” -Rachel “I would love to know what kind of equipment do you use; the camera, [...]

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Dishes, Mom, and other Idiosyncrasies

June 27, 2011

Mom has been living with us for six months now.  We’re getting used to each others idiosyncrasies which I’m still adjusting.  I’m doing my best to rinse the dishes in the sink instead of leaving them there to pile up, just like mom asked me.  I hate having to apologize for leaving them in the [...]

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Father’s Day

June 20, 2011

Father’s Day started with waking up with a text from my sister reminding me not to forget to meet at the cemetery at 2:45 pm today. I shouldn’t have checked my phone first thing in the morning because reading her text set the tone for the rest of the day, in a not so good [...]

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A Volcano of Grief

June 15, 2011

Yesterday while getting my kids ready for school my mom appeared in the kitchen dressed in a black pant suit. As I made myself a cup of coffee I asked her what her plans were for the day because she was obviously dressed to go somewhere. “I’m going to a burial,” she told me. I [...]

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